Some thoughts

It's been weeks since my last post, which surprises me. I've been writing and writing....but not posting any thing on the blog. Perhaps I need to rethink my writing habits.

A friend has asked numerous times I share my posts on his blog, especially ones written about report backs. His blog is very well read. Nice offer, but I'm not that comfortable with my style and content. People contributing to his blog know what they're doing; unlike me...I'm just doing!

My plans of returning to Gaza seem to be spinning wheels...I am waiting for information from people in Gaza who've offered their help....they know about traveling, entering and staying in Gaza. I know so very, very little. Frustrating! Since I'm "going this alone" it's a bit tricky; especially when it comes to entering Gaza. Arrangements for flying to Cairo and accommodations there are OK; the remainder of my plans...other than volunteering at Qattan...are pretty much up in the air.

And raising the necessary funds to make this trip a reality are going much more slowly than they should. The fact that I hate asking for money probably has something to do with my procrastinating. Technology hasn't helped. I've created a short presentation intended for a DVD. My PhotoShop Elements 6 led me to believe it was capable of adding audio narrative...not so I'm afraid. My plan was sending this in a packet to prospective sponsors. The written narrative won't be as effective, but I should probably just accept it. Stop waiting for miracles!

Guess what I need to do is just DO SOMETHING and quit trying to do the perfect thing.

What do I truly want? to return to Gaza mid-January and volunteer at Qattan...staying four to six weeks! I believe I need to do this.

Yesterday someone asked what I thought "the trip/my goimg" would accomplish.... Though question! I want to know I've done something to to let at least some of the people in Gaza know I stand with them. I believe they deserve respect...support...I can not solve the Israel/Palestine situation...I can, as they say, "stand up and be counted."

Also. I go because if one child in Gaza finds, knows and remembers someone from the "outside world," a woman from the US, spent time with them, respected them ,was kind, fun, and maybe was even exciting to be with, then I will have accomplished something! That "something" will make a difference...a difference to me, if no one else. I want to leave this world having tried to make it a better place. That's not an easy task!